These last couple of months have been a bit rough. But I promised myself when I first started this blog that it would be a cheerful and positive account on what to do with yourself after the kids grow up and leave home. . . and I didn’t want to turn it into a whiney, sniffly blog just because my work sucks right now. And let me tell you. . . I’ve had some serious moments of open hostility. . . and I’m NOT a hostile person! I realize that I should be thrilled to HAVE a job right now, but there are things that just absolutely push my buttons and make me not care.

Leaving it all in a purely summarized paragraph should be enough. . . just in case someone “on the other side” can actually OPEN a website and READ this and show it to our new micromanager. (Okay, I’m reeling in the sarcasm) Take the precarious/borderline hostile work situation and a doubled workload and add the fact that my mother-in-law just found out that she’s got cancer (we’re all sitting on the edge of our seats with this one) and add the fact that my oldest boy’s car finally bit the big bullet and we’re having to shop for a new/used car when the banks are NOT giving out loans and he’s bumming rides hither and tither to his two jobs and it equals YJB a little bit preoccupied. (How’s that for a run-on sentence?) Facebook has become a distant pastime. My email is backed up from family and friends who think that I’m completely ignoring them and don’t love them anymore. (I still do!!!) I still stop by to visit my blog friends when I can but even that has been quite sparse. So overall, I’ve basically been a bad bad blogger/friend/family member lately. . . and I SO apologize.

I say all this because . . . this past weekend. . . I felt (I dare say) a glimmer of hope. Not because anything eased up or changed or anything. No – but because as Chris and I were shopping and shopping for another vehicle (and I HATE car shopping/car salesmen more than I hate the dentist), the weather was absolutely BEAUTIFUL! It was 75 degrees all weekend! And warm sunshine can make the MOST depressing day feel better. . . at least for me anyways. I felt a little stir of creativity under my skin. I felt my face crack a smile. I felt hope that the dark days would end soon. The sun was out and I was out in it. Allbeit I was outside on used car lots which is comparable to walking through a zoo full of wild, starving animals with a rack of ribs tied to your head. . . but it was sunny out and it made all the difference in my little world.

I love the sun! It gives me hope that brighter days are to come. In the meantime, please don’t abandon me completely. I’m still here. . . eager to get back to my blog world. In fact, I have some ideas to shake this space up a bit. I’ll need your help because I’m so lame with ideas, but I have a concept lurking in the back of my brain. Hopefully, I’ll get my act together soon and we can work on it. You with me?